The Power of Truth

Within each day, I come to countless crossroads when I must choose whether to respond authentically. Some critical. “Mommy, why did you pick me up late?” Others mundane. “What time did you wake up this morning, honey?” I sometimes struggle to say what represents my actual thoughts or experience. “Ruth, we talked about what to … Continue reading

“The one person…

The one person I am with forever is me. My relationship with myself is eternal, so I choose to be my own best friend. I choose to love and accept myself and talk to myself as I would to a beloved person in my life. I saturate all the cells in my body with love, … Continue reading

The Tempest of Love Addiction

Rushing to revive a lost tug living just below the surface. Rigged to another sputtering engine. A rudderless race. Roving with no true destination. Hitched to another’s helm for survival. Love addiction. An addiction in its truest form: an anticipation of revelry, a fix realized, and the relief that follows. Without constant reassurance the love … Continue reading

Equations of Value

I finally found my word. Everything I read or heard about finding an inspirational word for the year—not a resolution or a goal, but a theme, a purpose—proved true. The word repeatedly solved perceived problems. In and of itself, the word became a way to delineate the options ahead of me. Other words clambered for … Continue reading

Competition Becomes Me

In a guest post last week, Sarah Beth Jones of Nary Ordinary Business Services discussed Why Internal Competition Rules and External Competition Drools. She invited a response, and Attention Anonymous accepted the challenge. This post was originally published on the No B.S. blog. Facing a full length mirror in my first ever Body Pump class, I eye the girls … Continue reading

A Woman with Intention

Propped on the bedside, nylon stockings stretched under A-line skirt, I stroke his soft cheek. Waiting for him to stir, I cherish a rare quiet moment. I coax him from under the warm covers with soft kisses and a slow back scratch. I intend: To bring him into a new day gently and kindly. To … Continue reading

Do you fear what I fear?

Love doesn’t come the way it once did: a loud patron pushing open an unhinged door and allowing in the evening’s bluster, announcing the need for a seat though no reservation shows on the books. Love isn’t invited the way it once was: by an exposed and impressionable hostess granting not permission but giving always … Continue reading

Dear Lover, Do you fear what I fear?

Love doesn’t come the way it once did: a loud patron pushing open an unhinged door and allowing in the evening’s bluster, announcing the need for a seat though no reservation shows on the books. Love isn’t invited the way it once was: by an exposed and impressionable hostess granting not permission but giving always … Continue reading

Divorce and Death: What Was, What Could Have Been

I imagined sitting in a lawyer’s office giving depositions to finalize my divorce would be nothing less than tortuous. Have you been separated for more than a year? Yes. Is there any chance for reconciliation? No. How could such questions—monotonous and unnervingly devoid of emotion—not cause me to collapse in sorrow? Two reasons. These final … Continue reading

I Must Take Care of Me

On hold to make a doctor’s appointment, I listen to the ringtone-quality music, twirl my hair and think about what’s for dinner. “Women spend so much time taking care of others that they often forget to take care of themselves…” I’m sure you’ve heard it. Trying to make a doctor’s appointment while sending an email … Continue reading