I Blush

Even to say it sounds like a dirty word. Blush. I don’t just blush when someone gives me a compliment and I’m trying to be coy. Or when I feel uncomfortable in a conversation and don’t know how to gently excuse myself. Or when I know I’m saying or doing something contradictory to my best … Continue reading

Writing for Me (Eventually)

I’ve gotten into a bad habit of only writing when I plan to post what I write–either on this blog or in the one publication that still lets me submit (Front Porch Fredericksburg). I am looking for a guide light to lead me toward a writing discipline, a daily habit to reflect my thoughts and … Continue reading

Listen Now or Forever Hold Your Tongue

Put down the phone. Let the dishes marinate a little longer. Swallow what’s on the tip of your tongue and wait for it. Wait for the still squeaky, sometimes whiny, always earnest voice of your child as he weaves another rambling tale. In our house, it’s usually about Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles in cyber space. … Continue reading

How I Got Here

Writing has long been a source of identity for me. I published a zine and audio zine when I was 16. A reckless collection of poetry and journal musings about a boy (like many others) I should’ve never been into and my struggle against parental interference. Or, puppy love BS packaged in a grungy, edgy … Continue reading

Election Day: An Apathetic Love Affair

When I was young—in college and as a fresh member of the workforce—I took my politics seriously. I rallied and argued and wore T-shirts and felt superior to anyone who didn’t agree with my version of the truth. I paid attention to who I thought I agreed with and I threw their arguments back at … Continue reading

The Unexpected Self Evaluation

With a blank page open on the bright screen, the cursor blinks and blinks and blinks. I move the mouse to open my email, and decide to get some real work done. Amid thoughts of weekend to-dos—don’t forget to switch the laundry before it mildews—and preparations for my husband’s return home from a three-month stent … Continue reading

Pokemon: A lesson in adaptability

Fog greeted the day, and steady rain played background to our playful chatter. Tucked away in a toasty home, we barely cared the sun never showed up this Sunday. We spent the afternoon getting odd jobs done around the house and attempting to decipher the Pokemon trading card game. Pokemon is complicated. The cards evolve … Continue reading

Parenting from a Place of Healing

I am on a journey. I chose a path of self-discovery and recovery, equipped with a determination to live intentionally and love responsibly. Self-discovery constantly unveils new layers of personality to be tended and cultivated. The path constantly grows and shifts, revealing new alcoves of sunshine and new life; uncovering tangled vines and challenging roots. … Continue reading

You Don’t Drink?

The Answer I Never Give to the Question I Always Get   I’ve never had a DUI or been arrested. I did wake up with my car nose deep in a snow bank and not remember how I got there. I’ve never lost all my money, family or friends to booze. I did lie to … Continue reading

The Tempest of Love Addiction

Rushing to revive a lost tug living just below the surface. Rigged to another sputtering engine. A rudderless race. Roving with no true destination. Hitched to another’s helm for survival. Love addiction. An addiction in its truest form: an anticipation of revelry, a fix realized, and the relief that follows. Without constant reassurance the love … Continue reading